Monday, July 21, 2008

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

now what?

i've heard and seen mixed reactions and it makes me realise that i've SO much to learn from the mental health sector, esp here in singapore. i'm afraid yet i think i can do it. i want it yet i fear about what he thinks of me. i want to perform but i need to know what is expected of me. its all so damn serious and i have to remind myself that i'm not alone. at the end of the day, i only have myself to hold me back. i'm sure i can do it with His help. be with me God. i so need You right now.

one month from tomorrow and we'll find out how it goes.

all i pray for is that i exceed any expectations and that i love it. not too much to ask for, i hope.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 7:48 PM < +

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

dilemma

KL this weekend or NDP preview?

i get all patriotic and shit when i go NDP and i lurrve it! and of course, the hotmeninuniform (speaking of which, i've a session tonight in prison. wootwoot!) *grinz*

for KL, the prospect of meeting up with darling MIlles (its been over a year) and her little munchkin (babysitting offer still stands). the shopping (thinking of getting baju raya), but definitely not he food (sis and i are fasting for rejab, Insya'Allah).





OH SHIT! I'VE A CAMP THIS FRIDAY AND I PROMISED THEM I'LL COME!!!
i knew i had something on. that's why i couldn't make the decision to go KL straight away. alamaaak! sheesh!

okay, decision made. KL, next time. sorry Milles.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 7:40 PM < +

Monday, July 14, 2008

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

this.... i HAVE to share

i've been having this part time gig in prison for half a year.... i've about 10 'clients' so far. 1 has absconded, 3 have been released (Alhamdulilah). 1 is about to go on his long home-leave (tagging. this means that he doesn't have to report back to 'camp' anymore).

for all of these 'clients', before they're allowed to go out to work, they're supposed to fiil up a needs assessment form. one question that all of them are asked will be about their intention to abscond (of course, they ALL say they won't). the questins that follows will be 'what will make you abscond'. so far, they've given me model answers. which goes along the lines of 'i will never do it', 'won't do it for the sake of my family', etc, etc....... this last one will be my classic answer, the model answer, the icing on the cake of all 'loyar burok' answer...

qtn: what will make you abscond?
ans: when war break out in singapore.


kwangkwangkwang

i almost fell off my seat laughing at his answer.
joker.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 3:07 AM < +

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

what i ask for this year

bestie asked what i wanted this year and she got me thinking.....

well..... i'd rather get the tangible things myself.....

i took many many hours to think about it...

something meaningful......

and knowing how i'd like to 'celebrate' it on the day itself....

the thought struck when i was showering (who says you can't be philosphical while in the loo?)....


i'd want all my muslim friends to go solat Terawih with me on the 31st Aug or on 1st Sept itself....

don't worry, my terawih play cheat one. 8 raka'at only. bawah block- so there's air circulation.
*grinz*

ps: and if u're not here with me, i hope you still go terawih and doa for me.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 4:15 PM < +

Thursday, July 03, 2008

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

5 AM (7 AM AEST)

i'm still up. struggling is an understatement. i'm battling the exhaustion, till Subuh at least, and am trying to complete the research. my mind refuses to think anymore, my eyes don't want to read any statistical mumbo jumbo and my ass' screaming for a rest. yes, i've been squashing my bum for the longest time. my back is aching and my eyes are exceptionally heavy.

i switched on the radio just so i can hear the morning Adhan so i can pray (on time) and go to sleep.

i have an idea on how to go about the remainder of the research but the mind simply stopped working- five hours ago. i'm producing the results and analysis through sudden bursts of energy and inspiration from the chicken nuggets i've been munching on. its like nothing, nothing, nothing and then suddenly i'm furiously typing away for 5 minutes. and then i'm back in the daze.... nothing. nothing. nothing...... kepish?

i'm so worked up that all i've been doing to escape from being stuck in front of the laptop is eat. eat. eat. eat. even mum finds it worrying. and she's normally worried that i eat too little (that's what she usually thinks anyways).

so here i am, waiting for The Call to perform my Islamic duties as a good Muslim (i try la)...........

i'll go back into my trance till then.

ps: pray for me that i do well, please?

+ > the glamour babe posted at 7:01 AM < +